... And the zeal I had is gone ...

Kipi · Post by **Kipi** » Mon Jul 23, 2007 9:06 am

Greetings beyond the grave

First of all, thank you all for your kind words and wishes. I assure, those meant a lot to me.

I just decided to make a quick pop to update my current status.

I've visited pshycology today, and he diagnosed bad depression. As he told me, that should explain my lost of interest in most of things I've been thinking important to me. Also, the depression is the cause of the feeling that the world was literally coming crumpling down.

For at least next month or so, I'm going to visit the same doctor four times a week, and going to take couple of different depression medicines daily.

Even though the treating has already begun, there is still long way to go before I can say that I've got over this. Don't know if I can return active before that, but currently my hopes are rather high that at least then I'm able to continue posting here actively, as well as continuing my normal life.

Tank you all, and take care!

-Kipi

TheAmazingOopah · Post by **TheAmazingOopah** » Thu Jul 26, 2007 7:43 am

Hey Kipi, just read your previous message, and I want to wish you strength on the overcoming of your depression. What amazes me, and what I admire heavily, is that you have both the brains and guts to have gone to a psychologist with this and that you gone into medicine treatment. A lot of people who get depressed do not want to know anything about treatment, and deny that they are depressed; which is like denying cancer when you have cancer just because you don't want to have cancer -in other words, sticking your head into the sand.

There was a time where I was depressed too, for quite a while actually, and I really just wanted to ignore the depression: seeking medical help was about the last thing I would consider doing. It was a time where I was just extremely unhappy with how I was, as a person. I just saw so many things that I didn't like about me, and lost all hope, instead of focusing on solutions and my good feats. In the end I got over the depression, it just slowly happened, partly because I worked on the things I really didn't like about myself, partly because I got more experienced with depression, beginning to really just see it as a mood, so that I became able to watch it in a more relative context, and partly because I also just got more used to the person that I am, and how it is easily possible to get used to bad things and bad qualities in mere time, therefor working on it. Things turned out okay for me, but it might have well have turned for the worse. All the time I knew that going to a psychologist with this would be the right thing to do, but I just couldn't get over that ledge to do the right thing and get out of this mess. You, however, have done the right thing, and you are on your way to beating this depression and getting back to your life. I think that that is a really great thing, and you have all my support on this.

If there is anything else that you would want to post here, go ahead, I'm definitely interested in how things are going. Or just PM me. Keep up the good work, and be strong. You'll make it.

Gilliatt · Post by **Gilliatt** » Mon Jul 30, 2007 6:51 pm

I just found that post Kipi. I wish you good luck with your treatments.

Don't give up, you will come out of it stronger than you were before!

Have you listened to Halford's song Resurrection lately? I think it is a good inspiration. And a hell of a good song!

Take care.