I remember that day so well... Gosh I want a chance to talk about it so forgive me if I go just a wee bit off topic...
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It was about 8:30 AM when my flipping out grew much worse. I knew that the night before, when I was talking to my friend Charity, I had mentioned "Bad vibes" and to quote the conversation:
ShadowSandrock (10:59:57 PM): I'm getting bad vibes...
*********** (11:00:13 PM): :-(
ShadowSandrock (11:00:14 PM): When something bad is gonna occur soon, I get this pulsing feeling in my chest and head.
ShadowSandrock (11:00:26 PM): The sooner it is coming, the worse it becomes... and it is happening now...
*********** (11:00:42 PM): Should I get my radio back together? ^_^;;
(screen name covered to protect Char's privacy)
Yeah, I kinda had bad feelings for a while before it happened, but still I can't say I didn't see such a disaster coming. I was practically crying before the phone rang at 9:15 AM with my grandfather saying "Barry turn on MSNBC, somebody bombed the World Trade Center." I was wondering if it was a prank or something, and wondering what the WTC was but when I turned on the TV I kinda... umm... screamed?
I kinda got this huge chill right before the second plane smashed into the other tower, which was what I think it actually smashing, since the cameras aren't EXACT with live. I was right there when the second tower got crashed, when the first fell, and the second fell, and I could just feel the fear in all the people trapped inside's hearts. Imagine yourself trying to get out of one of the buildings... then just hearing the floors above you snap one by one as the top half falls on top of you, until the ceiling shakes and there's a small crack, which gives way to tons upon tons of metal crashing on top of you. And time seems to freeze right before it crashes, and you just think to yourself, "This is it... I am going to die..." and you look around and see many other people, some young some old. Some holding three-year-old children in their arms, comforting them, saying "Everything will be okay, honey, we'll get out alive..." and then... all promises become lies as the buildings literally smush you into the floor, crashing you floor after floor, and if you did not die right away, you feel floors break apart underneath you. And the next one falls. And the next. I remember reading my Bible with my best friend when his mom said another building fell apart. I was like no!
And of course the President came on TV that night and made a comforting statement on national TV. Every channel. I had a TV on right behind me and was listening as I posted here. In that one day, I posted at least 300 times. Three hundred times. IIRC, anyway. It was traumatizing for me... and well nobody really knows what it's like to have the bad vibes that something bad is going to happen. You don't have to believe me when I say that I felt it coming, that is fine, but I believe myself for it.
I just found myself easily crying day after day, until Sept. 14 when they had the national day of prayer and mourning. I remember neighbors crying, friends crying, family crying, and I too cried. I found it impossible to concentrate on school work, so I went on the Internet for a while. (I was homeschooled at this time.) I talked to Sailor Saturn, and found out that well I am not the only one that felt as depressed as I did because of it. It was great having somebody mature and understanding to talk to, and I thank her for that... and of course I posted here... but that is besides the topic.
During this time, the President declared war on Afghanistan for not giving up Bin Laden. Actually, he declared war on the Taliban, not Laden. I was relieved and scared by this. I knew the Taliban had Anthrax, and might use it. Then the letter scare began starting. Did you notice that the whole anthrax issue has practically disappeared into shadows? Nobody cares anymore. We want bin Laden, and we want him NOW. My uncle and aunt could have been on one of those planes, going to celebrate their first anniversary, but they somehow decided to leave a day early and their lives were spared because of it. Bin Laden, you have terrorized millions with your terrorism. I hope you are happy. It won't last. Enjoy your last breaths because we are going after you. And when we catch you, may you finally realize how you have destroyed your cause. Nobody respects your cause anymore. You're just another shadow now. A figure of the past.
I think what Bush doing is the best thing that can be done. Come on Bush! Get bin Laden for all of us! Because it is the only path we can take from here. We need to sleep in peace again!
Sorry if my post offended anybody in any way so far.
Sayonara, minna... akiramenai

*hopes that translates to Goodbye, everybody, never give up, if it doesn't then I am open to correction definitely, I love learning more Japanese*
cookies.